Photo by : Nick Falkner

No, not that tv shows about some dudes and chicks who got lost in a deserted island no.

I’m talking about lost in the place where you shouldn’t be.


(i hope) It’s going to be deep.



First thing first, i have to ask. do you ever feel lonely in a crowded place ? yes, i’m talking about the gorgeus photo from Nick Falkner on the above, then you might be interested about what i’m going to write today. And yes, i almost always feel that thing. if you do too, hi5 bro.

do you have friends ? or a community ? ever feel like you’re being unwanted ? maybe you’re getting a loneliness, note that lonely is different than being alone. Loneliness could happen in a very very crowded place like when you’re waiting for the train to comes up, when you’re in traffic jam, in class, or even in your own house. see, loneliness happens when we feel anxious feelings about a lack of connection or communication with others.It could happen by emotional things, or maybe social events, or even mental state.

People can experience loneliness for many reasons, like the shortage of friendship relations during childhood or teenage, or the physical lack of meaningful people around a person. At the same time, loneliness may be a symptom of another social or psychological problem, such as depression.a lot of teen experience loneliness after a breakup, for the people who already married,a divorce or loss of any important long-term relationship. In these problems, it may come both from the loss of a specific person and from the withdrawal from social circles lead to by the event or the correlated sadness.

There is a small thin wall between lonely and alone. Loneliness is happens cause lack of connection between relation, while the other, alone is caused by lack of contact with other people, like i said, a person could feel lonely in a crowded place, while instead one can be alone in their own favourite place and not feel lonely at all. Being alone is not that bad, for example people who is ten to being alone could explore their creativity to the max.

Solitude has been linked with melancholy, and is thus a jeopardy factor for suicide,i.e. comities or altruistic conceptions, as the main reason for what he called egoistic suicide.In adults, solitude is a major precipitant of dejection and alcoholism. People who are convivially isolated may report poor slumber quality, and thus have diminished restorative processes. Solitude has additionally been linked with a Schizoid character type in which one may optically discern the world differently and experience gregarious alienation, described as the self in expatriation.

There is a way to avoid this, you know… like, Challenge yourself to take the initiative in convivial relationships. Don’t wait for people to approach you: you should approach them. Ask the person if they optate to chat or get a coffee. You must always show interest in other people afore they will show interest in you, if they ever do.Work on ameliorating and making yourself blissful. Conventionally, when we’re devoting most of our time to other people, we incline to neglect ourselves. If you’re going through a period of solitude, capitalize on it by doing the things that you optate to do for yourself. This is a sublime opportunity and you should be blissful!

This last paragraph is not important as other paragraphs, but hey. i’m just trying to help other who feels the same like me, i’m one of the people who is having a stress by a loneliness. just for your information, i have stopped coming to my community’s meeting, because… i don’t really feel accepted there, sad. i know. although i love them for being what they are, i still love them, i still have a lot of memories there, and even if i don’t attend mandatory meeting anymore, i still have 1 more year to be with them, and i decided to use that span of time to the fullest. i don’t have to tell what the name of my community right ? yes. thank you.                                                                          and also, if you ever feel so alone, contact me ! maybe i could help ! here. i’ll give you my personal’s chat messaging accounts ! 🙂

LINE : Basyandira

Whatsapp : (+62)83897780540

Snapchat : Basyadira

this three are the apps that i opened regularly when i was bored, i open it up on my phone mostly, so i could respond ASAP. anyway, today’s story end here. i hope you have a good friends and have a nice week ! bye ! 😀


Back with a (lot) of curcol.

Hey ya everyone who reads my blog. ( if there’s any.) i’m back from the real life ! and hello again my dearest , newswest blog that i have never update since a long long time ago! lol anyway i’m gonna tell you a story about what’s going on with my life recently, here goes…


Mechanical Keyboard

Over the past months i’ve been crazily getting into CS:GO and CS:GO Community. after miraculous 17 (or 19) wins i’ve been on Silver Elite rank which is kinda high for the newbie levels. anyway i watch every pro gamer and saw their beautiful keyboard which is not a gaming keyboard, but…. a mechanical keyboard. yes, the keyboard that usually used for typing, (but recently used for pro RTS gamers like starcraft,dota,etc.). 

The keyboards are beautiful! It have modify with a bunch of alternate keycaps that makes the keyboard cuter, cooler, or which way you want the keyboard goes. Anyway, the mechanical keyboard is not very cheap so do i say as a college student, yup… The keyboard itself goes at price range from 100-200 US$ but i have a very specific keyboard that i have target on and that is… KEYCOOL 84 KEY RED LED ! The keyboard itself is very small, only 75% from a full size keyboard and it’s not very very expensive. But, the goodness from keycool makes another problem, and that is… people wants to have it too which makes the stock is very rare and the keycool factory itself has discontinued the product,so… yeah

Here’s the good news ! The newer version of keycool gonna be released soon ( i hope it’s soon enough ) so that just makes me have to be more patient than before. If you want to know how the keyboard looks like i will show it to you below. Check it out !


Pretty right ! OF COURSE !!! Hahahahaha well, just wish me luck i will have the best keyboard at it’s range and it’s good enough for me. Anyway i’m in the middle of mid exam, will post more if i have the mood for it, See ya later !!!!!!!!!!!!!